It’s Official!

We are officially a waiting family! Our home study is done and our profile books have been delivered and turned into our agency and we can now be presented to birth moms! Things are all out of our hands from here and we just have to keep praying.

A big question we get asked is how long and what’s all this mean now? The agency we picked is a local one so they average a handful of adoptions per year and their wait time ranges from 1 year to 3 years. We are really really praying it’s on the short end of that though but it’s really in God’s hands now. We are getting ‘good’ at waiting so as long as we stay busy and hopeful, we will be ok! I’m sure at times it’ll be tough and test our patience, after 3 years and counting now of waiting for the chance to be parents, that time frame scares me but I have a lot I want to focus on while I can. We have a few things to do around the house, I have some books I want to read, and we have a puppy to spoil (and train) – all of these things will keep us busy and hopefully preoccupied while time passes by.

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Our profile books turned out beautiful though! I’m really happy with them, even after having a problem with the printer and needing to redo and have them printed somewhere else. I feel like it really gives a nice sneak peak of who we are. I said a little prayer before turning it in and felt a weight lifted off my shoulders afterwards!

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Cold Tea

My coworker and I have a little inside joke about our tea – I’m not sure about all of you but I LOVE tea…but sometimes I question if I like the thought of tea more than drinking the actual tea itself. My coworker pointed that out as she is the same.exact.way. We are constantly reheating our tea during the day…I bring tea in every morning from home, by the time I actually take a sip, its cold. I’ll reheat it, and get busy with something else and BAM, it’s cold again. What’s going on!? I’m not a fan of HOT, hot tea so I like it just warm enough to sip without burning off the taste buds, but not too cooled off where you can’t feel it go down into the pit of your stomach. So as I sit here and write this, I sip my room temperature tea because I, once again, heated it and forgot about it. Problems…

This week we ‘finished’ up our home study! Ahh!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m excited.

Our social worker visited our home on Tuesday evening where she was greeted by a very excited little pup! Bentley did really well, which was one of the things I was most worried about. He’s such a good little boy but 4:00 is his busy time after being crated for most of the day he’s got a lot of bottled up energy and expects our full attention. He definitely was showing off because he did really well and ended up entertaining himself with his toys for part of the time.

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All that is left is to get our ‘report’ signed off on that basically summarizes the home study which will be done in the next week or two. I have to submit our letter to birthparents and some photos of us to be used on our agency’s website and then Monday, our profile books are supposed to be delivered to our doorstep. I am a graphic designer so that sort of thing is typically really fun for me, but summarizing us as individuals, a couple, our families, our lives, our dreams, etc. is really hard to do in a book – especially a book that may be the only source of who we are…it’s a lot of pressure! But I am happy with how it came together and excited to flip through the pages before handing them over.

Then, we enter another season of waiting.

These past few months have been active waiting – a time where we were busy with getting things checked off our list. The waiting that we are coming into now is completely, 100% in God’s hands. We just have to keep hoping and praying.

I also will be busy working on my Etsy shop again and reading some books I have on my list to read. Does anyone have any good books about adoption they’d recommend?  I have found some wonderful, inspiring blogs from adoptive mothers that have been super helpful as well.

I can honestly say that I imagine what I’m feeling right now as we wait is similar to what a pregnant mama feels in her heart: so much love. I feel like the bond is building, I often wonder if they’ll be a he or she, what they’ll look like, what their story will be, and all I feel is love for this being whom I haven’t yet met, whom I’m not even sure is even being yet, the little soul that fits perfectly into our family. Yes, I also feel a lot of fear, guilt, heartache, and a whole slew of emotions that tie with adoption in itself but more than anything, I’ll focus on this feeling of love that is so, so worth it.

Thankful Heart

I haven’t been able to post much lately because I’ve been so busy with all of your amazing requests for Christmas cards, family pictures, and printables! Thank you all so, so much for not only letting me do my thing that I love to do but for also your support to help bring baby B home! I can’t tell you how much we appreciate everything!!! Also my Pampered Chef party closed this weekend and completely blew my mind with how many orders we received! Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!!!

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In the meantime, we enjoyed a wonderful Thanksgiving with our families. Every year I have a lot to be thankful for but this year was extra special to me – I sat back and enjoyed every moment of it instead of feeling the emptiness that something was missing. Our families were all together, everyone was healthy, and we had plenty of food to go around the beautiful, warm houses we were in. I am so thankful for all of my many, many blessings – past, present, and future! Thanksgiving is something that I think we need more than once a year to remind us to appreciate all of the things we have in our lives, or maybe the spirit of Thanksgiving can continue on in our day to day lives without letting the busyness of life crowd our hearts!

Last minute decision to run the local Turkey Trot this year with my sister-in-laws Thanksgiving morning.
Last minute decision to run the local Turkey Trot this year with my sisters-in-law Thanksgiving morning.

Our adoption home study is moving right along. I have been working hard on our profile book – a book about ourselves, our lives, our families, and our dreams that will be presented to birth parents. I am one final check away from ordering it and I can’t wait to see how it turns out once it’s printed! It’s really hard to summarize your journey down to one book but I think it really shows who we are both individually and as a family.

We also got our MMPI results back last night and had our individual interviews. The weird thing about the MMPI is it asks true/false questions like “I would like to be a florist.” “I feel like the world is out to get me.” “I would like to be an auto-mechanic.” (567 random questions like that…) but the results ended up being pretty close to our personalities. It breaks down your personality by certain traits and compares you to a group of people who scored similarly. It was interesting! I am glad that it’s one more thing checked off our list though.

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Our individual interviews seemed to go well too! We talked a lot about my childhood, David, our marriage, and past experiences. Our social worker seemed to enjoy these as well since David and I have known each other for so long, she chuckled at times knowing what the other had said.

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Found this photo when I was searching for photos for our book (I didn’t include this one…) but look at those babies! We look so young! (we were so young!)

We have one more interview, our in-home interview, and we will just be waiting for our fingerprints to get processed. I do have to say the home study was NOT at all what I expected – I had read that it was pretty in depth, scary, involved, and piles after piles of paperwork. I think our social worker rocks because she’s made it go very smooth and painless for us!

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Now that Thanksgiving is over, it’s time for full out Christmas! Last year we were getting ready for our trip – I was in Christmas mode way before Thanksgiving and then once we came back from our trip it was hard to get back into the spirit of Christmas (it’s called Iowa Vacation Blues and it’s a real thing – when you leave somewhere warm and return to a blizzard) but this year, my tree still isn’t up! This is the latest for me, ever. I think mostly because I’m trying to figure out a way to keep Bentley from the bottom 2 feet of it (3 if he gets some air when jumping)…

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